2nd Blog Post
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6/11/20262 min read
1:30 in the Morning
It's 1:30 in the morning as I write this. I'm sitting
here thinking, like I always do.
I spend a lot of time in my own head. Sometimes
so much time thinking that I don't finish the work I've started. Ideas come and go. Projects get
pushed aside. Hours pass, and before I know it, another day is gone.
Managing that every day is hard.
My focus has always been my children. They are
the center of my world. When they're with me, I
know exactly what my purpose is. But when
they're with their mom, my mind tends to
wander. I think about them. I wonder how they're
doing. I miss the noise, the chaos, and even the little things that used to drive me crazy.
Sometimes it's easier to just sleep. And I do that
more than I probably should.
Other times I binge on coffee. I don't drink
alcohol. I don't smoke. Part of that is because I
never wanted to be the kind of dad who
depended on those things. The other part is because I know myself. Once I start something,
it's hard for me to stop. So instead, I end up
drinking five or six cups of coffee a day and calling it moderation.
Everyone has a cross to bear.
The older I get, the more I realize that my
struggles are not just burdens-they are blessings. They teach me patience. They teach me humility. They remind me that this life is temporary and that there is something greater
waiting for us.
There are days when it's hard to move forward. Days when the pain is physical. Days when it's
emotional. Days when I question whether I'm
doing enough.
Then I remember what Jesus endured.
I remember the suffering He willingly accepted
so that I could have the opportunity to spend
eternity with Him. When I think about that, my own struggles seem different. They don't disappear, but they take on a new meaning.
That's why I put God first and my family second. My faith gives me peace when life feels chaotic. It gives me hope when the future feels uncertain.
It gives me strength when I don't feel strong.
And sometimes, getting through the day is
enough.
So tonight, at 1:30 in the morning, I'm choosing gratitude. I'm grateful for my children. I'm
grateful for the challenges that have shaped me.
I'm grateful for the pain that has taught me perseverance. Most of all, I'm grateful for a God
who never leaves my side.
That's what gets me through the day.
Every day. :::