Finding Clarity: Embracing Change and Recovery
7/9/20261 min read
Well it's 2:45, and here I sit in Starbucks with my dog. I have confession at 4, then hopefully I can find mass. I want to go everyday, also I want to say 4 rosaries a day. I fail both more often than not. I have this one sin that recently has been coming up over and over again. The day I transfer my kids back. I need to find a therapist because there is a lot I have to get over. I decided to stop going to the casino. Because of my personality when I lose I can't stop thinking. When I win I just go back and lose it. I think that's the case for everyone, but with me it's times 10. I have to figure out a way to get over this. I have to figure out a way to earn money. Then I can find someone to be with. Because who would want a brain injured man, a father of 6 kids, divorced, no real job. So when you see that I am destined to be alone. Unless I change it, no crying. I have to take my own life over and stop living in the past. My memories are very vivid, but the blessing is if I choose to forget I can. Live in the moment, if I get to worried I just remember to pray, hope, and don't worry.